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Don't turn back.
May. 22nd, 2008 | 01:52 am
mood: 
moody
A penny for your thoughts.
Indeed, for me. Guess i would just rant it out here.
Was catching up with shawn on msn,
and he was just telling me about the cons of those modelling company.
Honestly, it kinda scare me after all that he shared with me.
But i alr signed up for the course this afternoon so dere's no point to fret over it.
I believe God has his plans for me and i know with him, everything is just gonna be fine.
Yes and AMEN !
(Shawn, i'll be looking fwd to my hand-made pizza by you ok and i wanna see you soon with braces on ! XD )
Yeah, i'll be starting my first lesson this sunday. Parents are allowed to accompany their child during this 5-wk course. Mummy is sure gonna be there as well. Bfs are allowed too, just no gfs. =x Reason behind it : they don't want the girl frens to pick up any tips for free. bwhaha.
First lesson will be cat walk,
Second lesson will be cat walk with pose,
Third lesson will be learning how to put professional make-ups
Fourth lesson will be DIY. (includes putting own make-up, cat walk and so on..)
Fifth lesson is TEST !
Will prolly update more when i finish going for each lesson. ((:
Alright put that aside for the time being.
Oh, i was mentioning about what went through my mind today.
Somehow it's connected to the people around me.
I realised as i grew older, i will meet with many kind of people coming from different walks of life.
I was just thinking about the frens i have in school and also the upcoming people i will meet during my course.
Well, frens do come and go easily. But how many trusted ones can there actually be ?
For me, i will say close to zero.
Cus i tasted betrayal from a very close fren of mine before. Therefore i feel it will be very tough to build up that trust with someone else again.
It's quite sad that close buddies can get drifted apart once they are spilted up in different directions.
So that's supposed to explain how close bonded this friendship is ?
Honestly, i do miss my sec sch frens. Thinking back of the times i had in sac really put a smile onto my face.
But it boils down to taking effort to contact one another despite being in diff sch.
So yeah, i'm so glad that i will catching up with hilda like real soon. Prolly next wk when both of us set apart some time for each other. (: HEEE.
Another issue that got me thinking was about my past r/s.
I was just talking to shermin about this during our biology lesson. Ha, we got so carried away that the teacher had to constantly goes; '' ESTELLE'' and he will just look at me. But the moment he started teaching, we just cont to talk and after awhile he just gave up and said; '' ESTELLE, you both can talk but must listen and pay attention also ok'' hahahaha. She's really someone whom i can click with cus somehow we both are in the same boat.
Thats why !
Received a text from
All these may be just plain dumb or my silly thought, but any idea how i will feel when i pass by that area every thurs and fri ? Y'know, i dread going to places we once left memories there before. Cus it will always built up the hurt in me. I was never looking for this ending when i first agreed to be yours. But yes, reality hits back and i am gg thru all this alone now. I never wanted to share this with anyone or rather i just don't know how to bring it up to anyone. Thats why i just bottled up everything right from the start. I'm sorry for the cause of it. When will there be a full stop regarding this matter? I hate myself for being a weakling at time. Two words for myself, MOVE ON !
2ishday was movie with the ''heaven'' boys. Reelyyy enjoyed the romance/comedy flick '' Made Of Honour'' with them.
Had mos burger for dinner before we settled for the show. =d Had a real good laugh and splendid day with joshy and gary. <3
Met bestie as soon as i finished settling the paper work at town. Met him at bugis and we went to grab some finger food. Took a bus back to my place and sat somewhere to have hth talk. Headed off to sweet treats and had dinner at one of the coffee shop. By the way, thanks bestie for teaching me how to use the lighter. It's just one step closer to light up my... ( _______ fill in the missing word ) Then after dinner, we walked back to lala playground and it was tickling time !!! Went back to coffee shop for some drinks and home sweet home. (:
Inserts --> Enjoy watching the soccer match with ahem
Okays, brother rushing me to watch the champion league with him.
Man Utd pls don't let me down. Just score frigging one goal.
Nights to all. xoxo.